This post, well it's about, well . . . I don't have a clue. The next couple of Saturdays will be spent in and around Cleveland for Tom's sake. I really hope this works out for him, he could really use something going his way. I know that he does try even though Pete does not think so. Pete's negativity is so draining, no one should have to live with such depressing behavior. It borders on verbal abuse.Tom has always taken the brunt of it. Scott took a lot when he lived with us, then Pete turned it to Tom. On occasion he verbally goes after the girls or me. I worry what's things are going to be like once all the kids are moved out, which if this works for Tom then that will be just a matter of months. What kind of marriage or live will there be here in this house? How long will any of it last?

I must find my direction again, I must keep myself together, I must find a way to make a life for ME once the nest is empty. Staying home, cleaning up after Pete and cooking for him while he sits in front of the computer or TV night after night will not do! He sits there in his chair night after night, only to get up to eat or take a bathroom break. Maybe one night out of the week he may decide to do something.

I need to get off this subject, and end this post.

If your in Cleveland on Saturday watch for me, I may be watching for you.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

Smile, life is complicated, messy, and hard.

No one ever gets anywhere taking the easy way out. Hard work is the way to get to you goals. Dreams don't just happen they require effort.

That is all for today. Many things bouncing around in my head this morning, however they are not quite forming complete topics or ideas so they shall be left for another time or place.

Haven't walked the stadium track in almost a year. Feeling it's time to get back there, now to work at getting there.Then again there is the new track that the park service put in here in Plain Township that is a LOT closer, I do believe that I will have to try that one really soon.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

Positive. Frozen in fear of failure, will get you no where. To make your life a better place for yourself and those you love, you need to move pass the fear of failure and embrace the possibility of success. For success and failure go hand in hand in life.

Gone is the negative.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

  

I know that I had promised to give up being so negative with my posts, trust me I am tiring. However this has been one of those nights, days, and weeks that makes me want to vent. And well, in my life there is no where, and no one else to vent to. All I want is to be held tight while I cry, is that really asking to much? I wish my house was less negative and more supportive of one another. All this anger, all this contempt some nights is about all I can take. It makes me just wan to say the hell with it all and give up. Why do I bother? Why do I try? Why do I care? What difference does it make? No one listens. No one opens their minds to the other possibilities. They each refuse to see life through the others eyes, to think about what it would be like in the others shoes, to walk a mile or spend a day. All the wrongs they do to each other does not make anyone right. It just makes it worse.

So any ideas out there I am running out of them here.

6 souls, 5 of them adults and 1 child, one house, 2 cars, 4 jobs, 2 schools, how do I get it to gel into a more positive atmosphere?

Working hard to make enough money to get us through and not getting anywhere because prices just keep going up and up.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

First thing, tonight I am disappointed that the comment I had for review was spam. I was really hoping for a real comment from a real reader. Come on people do you see any spam comments on my blog? No all comments are reviewed by me before they ever make it to the blog. DUH!

Second thing, I cannot believe that it has been more than a month since my last post.

Third thing for the night, is that I am really feeling kind of BLAH, and irritated. Not good, cannot seem to shake it so I guess it's off to bed already.

I really need to get back to my daily walks and exercise. I miss the time to myself and the way it helps me clear my head.
 
Working on being more consistent and persistent.

Maybe I will make a decision tomorrow on whether or not to cut my hair short again. I like it this length, down to my shoulder blades, but it takes more time to deal with, then when I used to have it short. The time is the main factor on why I may get it cut.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

Kathy Doherty

Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzas, Happy Winter Solstice, or what ever special occasion you chose to celebrate during this holiday season.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

Another year has past and my birthday is here, meaning that tomorrow is Christmas. Looking back at what as been another year of ups and downs. Thankful for my blessings, still questioning the problems and stress, and wondering what the next year will hold. Another year older, another year wiser, and another to plan, contemplate, and to succeed in accomplishing my dreams.

Christmas is upon us, those of us whom chose to celebrate this holiday in what ever manner we wish. A New Year is fast approaching, with all it's wonder, wishes, and dreams. A time for making changes and resolutions. Resolutions some of which will be kept, some will be forgotten all to quickly, others will nag us off and on all the year through. I have been doing quite a bit of thinking about my resolutions for the coming year and have narrowed the list down to a few concrete goals for myself. I will tell you all about them in the week to come, and with your help I hope to keep them and succeed in all that I do in the coming year.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

Hope this post finds everyone well, this day after Thanksgiving. I made it through the holiday in one piece, a bit bigger piece but one piece none the less. The "other" half became as negative and grumpy as usual after we came home from my parents, no surprise there. The grown up kids in my life still have no clue that they are expected to carry their own weight and make food to bring. SOOOO tired of carrying them that I did not cover their butts by baking the pies and cookies that they were suppose to bring. Not my problem that they left others down.

Clear skies and warm temps should mean that we are putting up Christmas decorations outside, but the make believe computer world that the "other" half has made for himself with scifi pictures from the internet and the stories he has made up starring himself are more important. He has spent more than 5 hours today on them. Instead I am cleaning house, napping, and later I will read.

No I did not do any Black Friday Shopping, that takes money that I do not have.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

Only one pinged view yesterday for my new post, really? How disappointing. Onto other things. Today's positive note, ummmmmmmm let's see I woke up that's a good thing right? Managed to get 40 minutes of Yoga this morning, there is only 1 load of laundry left to do. And I am making homemade caramel corn and oatmeal cookies. Those are the highlights of the day so far.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty

It's time for a change, the leaves are changing and so must I. Now is the time to turn over a new leaf and to try to post blog entries that are a bit more up beat. I am sure that I will stumble, I am sure that I will now and again revert back to my old habits. However from this day forward I will do my best to be more positive with my entries. I am going to try to look outward and not so much inward. Hopefully these changes will make for a better me, and a better out look on life, allowing me to grow and succeed.

I am trying to find the time to walk the track when the weather is nice (above 32 degrees f. and not wet or frozen), I miss this time I have to gather my thoughts and give my day a direction, we will have to see how it goes. Between working the lawn display business, selling and sharing Avon, and watching the awesome Lillian it has been almost impossible for me to make the time necessary to get to the track, I am going to have to force some changes so I can get back to it.


That's all for tonight, 4:30 am comes early and there are displays to deliver in the morning, so goodnight blogging world, I shall catch you at another time.

Life what it is, so make it the best you can.

Can you find me?

Catch ya on the flip side or perhaps at the track later this week.

or. . . . . . somewhere in the unwritten future . . . . . . . none of that has happened yet

Keep dreaming . . . . . . keep working on those dreams . . . . . . . someday they will come true.

 

Kathy Doherty