What a day. While rentals were good (4 for the day) the day over all is leaving something to be desired.

I did sleep, instead of walking, still not sure if it was the best thing. However it may have been since when I went out to leave for work (mom's house) the company truck decided not to start. So here I sit without transportation. The stupid ford taurus is sitting in the garage, in need of a new transmission. Then there is the old ford truck, that Tom drives, I guess there will be the 3 of us sharing it for a while. I can't drive it though, the seat will not move forward so there is no way for short little me to reach the pedals. Pete won't drive it because it is in need of body work, so that leaves Tom to drive both of us, fun.

I didn't walk so there goes the extra exerise for the day, didn't have the energy to do any wieghts or toning today either. So much for that.

I have decided that I am not in a train tunnel, if I was there would be at least one of two lights at the end of this dark hole in the wall, either the daylight of the other side or the headlight of an on coming train. All I see is darkness, not a hit of light, someone throw me a flashlight, this mine staft is giving me the staft.   

Then there is the lack of money, I am working on that as well as other such things.

Enough rambling, if you wish to comment please by all means do. All comments need to be approved before they are plubished, if you want to keep it between us just say so.

No signature again to night, still trying to find that lost dream, the feeling of being alive, looking for some help.

Hey here is a question for those of you whom are regular readers. How can someone who talks my children with distain, disrespect, hatefulness as weel as talk to me about my children with the same cruel, distain, disrespect, and hatefulness, think that I could love them? ANy answers out there?